Normally I do not like to talk about my personal problems. I do not do this for 2 reasons.....one being I am not looking for empathy & the other is that I have hard time expressing feelings & talking about problems.....even with wife.
For the last 6 years or so I have tried desperately to make amends with my brother. Upon getting engaged I did not like his choice for companionship(nice way of putting it). I have seen where she has been very manipulative toward him in the things he does...or doesn't do. I have been able to compose myself better in her presence & have accepted that this is what it is. My family has tried to do several things to keep my brother involved with his blood side but has been difficult to do this. My parents have helped them out in several occations & he still feels that WE (the family) do not want to do anything for him. My dad for 1 has given him 2 vehicle because he has not had the $$ to get others. The only vehicle he has bought was a 94 Saturn that is broke in his drive & has no $$ to fix it. He has filled backrupcy once & has been able to barely afford a minivan to haul his 3 kids around in. Recently my dad bought a new truck in summer 2004 & GAVE him the Blazer he had for 12+ years.....I am not upset at this for any reason at all & appreciate what my parents do for ALL 3 of us kids but he still seems to keep himself very distant from everyone.
Heres the good part.......Since my mom was Diagnosed with Respitory MS in 2003 he has made very little effort in the last year or so to see her at Madonna. She has to be on a ventaltor to help her breath & must be a permenant resident at this care center. I try my hardest tosee her on a weekly basis. There have been time that Wife, Owen & I have not seen her for 3 week stretches do to colds, sickness or other things but atleast call to see how she is........my brother does nothing except for major holidays or his kids birthdays (when he knows they'll get $ or stuff).
This Mothers day came & went & my brother never went out, sent a card or even called to say <edit> you to anyone. This has really hurt both my mom & dad to know that he either doesn't care or feesl like we don't care about him. If we didn't care that much why would we talk about him?
This is getting harder & harder for me to deal with & am looking for feedback from my BBC family.......I greatly appreciate the honesty you guys posess.........One of these days my moms MS will progress to a point of no return & I feel my brother will be looking for answers.
Sorry for long post