I will actually try to be clearer in my response.
I admire my friend rexico, and HoustonG............................ They ask legitimate questions. (Do I know their motive? No. Do they have a motive, I do not know, I really do not care? )
I as a Christian for 50 years, I have asked the same basic questions (to myself, usually) and have sought the same answers they seek.
I have searched history, Hebrew and Greek lexicons, un-inspired writers, Agnostics, Atheist,
THE BIBLE, to come my conclusions (of course I put more emphasis on the Bible than a agnostic, or atheist, only because my research showed me the bible was a reliable document. .............. I figured if my "eternal destination may hinge on what I believe" it's probably important 
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